Out of the Rut

right-left-brain-pinkFrom: Maria Manza
Date: Tue, Jul 10, 2018 at 10:47 PM
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Hey sis –

It was so, so good spending time with you this weekend and talking to you tonight. You are one of my most trusted thought partners, and I’m so grateful that we’re able to be sounding boards for one another as we individually work on changing some of the thought patterns we’ve been carting around since childhood that aren’t serving us.

It’s so easy to slip into the rut of comfortable roles in familiar situations. I love our time with our big family, but I can be quick to fall into the “I need to be everything for everyone or I’m failing” paradigm. My attempts to interrupt such thinking over and over again can feel like shuffling through mud without getting anywhere. But then I remind myself that rewiring the brain is work that is worthy of my time and effort, even when it feels frustrating or even impossible.

When I start to feel overwhelmed by the state of our country (a daily, sometimes hourly experience as of late), I try to remember that the internal work I’m doing also applies to the external world I live in. It seems to me that this country has an excellent opportunity to rewire its brain, but, as we’re seeing, it’s slow and painful and certainly not guaranteed without all of us speaking up constantly and doing the work to carve new paths out of the ruts we’re in (and have been in for quite some time ever).

This past 4th of July, I ended up at a lovely backyard party at a dear friend’s house. There were about a dozen of us sitting in a circle in mismatched camping chairs when someone brought up the state of current affairs. Someone else asked what was to be done. I responded that all of us need to do something – we need to vote, get other people to vote, and make voting accessible for those who are blocked from doing so. It was one of those moments that felt a bit uncomfortable, but we are in a time when we have to keep encouraging one another to step into the discomfort rather than run away from it.

“Wanting to run is necessary….but it can also be extremely dangerous and unwise, especially…when running exiles us from the very circumstances that were about to mature and cultivate our character.” – David Whyte, Run Away, Consolations

Thanks for holding me accountable.


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